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  Sometimes it’s easier to run...

  Ripped apart by guilt and grief, nineteen-year-old Whit Conrad grabs her stuff, runs from her super-conservative family in Pennsylvania, and hauls ass for sunny California. All she wants is escape. But what she gets is a craptastic apartment, a job at a tattoo parlour, and a life that’s not her own. Then she meets a sexy, inked surfer who has the potential to capsize everything...

  Deo Beckett is adrift. Underemployed and spending his time partying too hard, he knows he should be doing something more with his life. Being something more. All it takes is a pin-up hottie with a smart mouth—and a bruised soul—to force Deo to start looking below the surface. To wonder if there’s more to life than being a beach bum. Now he’s falling for Whit...hard.

  But Whit has secrets, and she’ll go to any lengths to keep Deo from discovering her past...

  Previously released under the title Lengths in August 2012, and has been enhanced with new material.

  Table of Contents

  The Silver Strand series Hide Me

  Risk Me

  Own Me

  Deserve Me

  Crush Me

  Chase Me

  Dedication

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Don’t miss book two in the Silver Strand series, Risk Me, coming soon! Risk Me

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  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is coincidental.

  Copyright © 2015 by Stephanie Campbell and Elizabeth Reinhardt writing as Lexi Scott. All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce, distribute, or transmit in any form or by any means. For information regarding subsidiary rights, please contact the Publisher.

  Previously released under the title Lengths in August 2012, and has been enhanced with new material.

  Entangled Publishing, LLC

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  Fort Collins, CO 80525

  Visit our website at www.entangledpublishing.com.

  Embrace is an imprint of Entangled Publishing, LLC.

  Edited by Liz Pelletier

  Cover design by LJ Anderson

  Cover art from Shutterstock

  ISBN 978-1-63375-339-6

  Manufactured in the United States of America

  First Edition July 2015

  The Silver Strand series

  Hide Me

  Risk Me

  Own Me

  Deserve Me

  Crush Me

  Chase Me

  To Lani,

  Who always reminds us that a true goddess embraces other women,

  and refuses to take any shit.

  Chapter One

  DEO

  My mom stuffs me with homemade coconut cake, the same kind she’s been making every year for my birthday since I was a little guy, but this year, she’s updated it nicely by lacing the icing with dark rum. It’s one of a handful of recipes my mom makes that’s actually edible, and it’s freaking amazing.

  Last year she gave me diving gear, which I have yet to use. I have plans for it, though. Eventual plans. This year she hands me a name and number on an old scrap of gray recycled paper for my twenty-second birthday, and it’s definitely something I can put to immediate use.

  “Rocko does fantastic work.” She pulls down one shoulder on her flowing purple dress and shows me a bunch of lotus flowers in pinks and whites so perfect, I feel like if I reach out the petals would be smooth under my fingertips. “Tell him I sent you and that this means we’re even.” She ducks her face down, all her waist-long hair falling forward and hiding her little blush like she’s a teenager with some crazy crush.

  I shake the paper at her. “C’mon. Tell me you didn’t do some fucking booty-call barter to get me a tat.”

  Her eyes, light brown just like mine, narrow in my direction. “Don’t be a creep, Deo. First of all, the lavender I just pressed sold out before I even finished bottling it, and I have double orders in for my next harvest. Secondly, my nookie is none of your damn business, but I will voluntarily tell you that I don’t use it for barter.” Her lecture completely loses its serious tone, and she pokes me with a foot decorated with a dozen silver rings. “Though it’s so damn good I could make a killing off of it if I wanted to.”

  I’d just scooped a fingerful of rummy icing into my mouth, and now I have to resist the urge to gag on it. “Too much, Mom. That is something that your one and only son just doesn’t need to know.”

  “Then stop being a smart-ass and say thank you when your mother gives you a perfectly nice gift.”

  She holds her cheek out and I kiss it, catching a whiff of the vanilla and jasmine scent she mixes herself in her little hippie-dippie store. It’s not my thing, but I’m happy for her. Her weird little cottage full of creepy potions and witchcraft draws every loony hippie from a hundred miles in for all kinds of herbs and oils, and she makes a decent slice for herself. I like that I don’t need to worry about her and that she’s happy.

  And I thank Gaia, or whoever the hell she’s praying to nowadays, that she can’t hear my thoughts and give me another women’s libber speech. My mom thinks it’s cool that she doesn’t have to rely on a man for her living. Me too. Just, sometimes, I wish she had someone else to lean on when shit gets rough. She’s so busy taking care of everyone she loves—and my mother loves big—she’s never found that one person to be her safe harbor in the storm.

  “Thank you. It’s an awesome gift. You know, most moms would have picked out a nice sweater or a tie or something.” I tug on her long hair, dark with red flecks from the henna she puts in it all the time.

  “Really? A tie?” For a minute, she squishes her eyebrows down together uncertainly, like maybe she’s thinking a tie would have been a good idea.

  “I have no clue, actually. We’re not most people, right? Let me go get a nice heathenish tattoo to celebrate my youth before it’s all gone.” Mom likes being edgy except when she thinks I’m behind the curve or losing out.

  And considering I’m officially twenty-two, recently fired from my fucktastic full-time job, without a place of my own or reliable transportation, maybe she thinks a tie might have given me some direction.

  “Just…get something meaningful, okay? Something you really care about.” Her eyes are shiny, probably from tears, but I’m just gonna pretend it’s because she’s excited.

  I grab my hoodie off the back of the old wooden kitchen chair. “So, no severed clown heads?”

  A smile tugs on one side of her mouth. “No. Unless you have some spiritual tie to severed clown heads. Don’t forget to take a plate of cake for Grandpa.” She gives me a too-tight squeeze as I head out the door, the cake she wrapped up balanced on one hand. “Oh! And you got a package.”

  The smile that was almost a real thin
g goes wooden and overly wide on her face. I sigh, not knowing what’s in the little brown box, but positive about who it’s from.

  “Dad?” I don’t want to even take the damn thing, but she’s holding it out with all this hope, like I might be super mature and look past his douchiness and be glad he sent something.

  Being cool with his fuck-ups is her bag, not mine.

  “You know he wanted to be here this summer, Deo. You know that. He’s in the Congo. There’s no way he could have made it back.” She presses the little box my way, and I pull it out of her hands and turn it over in mine, wishing I was badass enough to toss it in the garbage and not give it another glance.

  But he’s still my dad. He still sent a gift. He still fucking cares, even if it’s not as much as he should.

  I hold it next to my ear and shake the package, long like a pencil case and strangely light. “I’m gonna guess it’s a boomerang.”

  “Did he ever wind up getting you one? You must have asked five or six years in a row.” She tucks her hair behind her ears, and it hits me again how much my grown mother can look like a little girl. Maybe it’s because she doesn’t do the whole makeup thing or because she wears all this jangly jewelry like some teenager, or just because she has this optimistic-but-vulnerable vibe down pat, but she looks so young, it’s easy for me to pack up whatever hard shit I’m trying to deal with and put it away where it won’t bother her.

  “Yeah. The Christmas I was fifteen. Airmail from Sydney.” I toss the box and catch it in my hand not balancing the cake. “Thanks for the cake and the number. I’ll stop by when I’ve got some decent ink to show you, all right?”

  She leans in the doorframe behind the torn screen door I should fix but haven’t bothered to yet and smiles at me.

  Pissed as I am at my father, I sure as shit managed to pick up some of his crappiest traits. Like being able to leave my mom hanging. Worrying the piss out of her. Dropping more on her shoulders than she needs to deal with.

  I slam the door on my Jeep and throw the box into the back, then pull away from my mother’s house fast so I don’t have to focus on that rolling disappointment, all wishful eyes and sweet, sad smile.

  I slide my phone out and unfold the scrap of paper she gave me, dialing with half an eye on the road.

  “This is Rocko.” The voice is business-crisp.

  “Hey. Marigold Beckett gave me your number, told me I should call you for some good ink.” I glance at the box from my father in the rearview mirror and wonder what he felt was an appropriate gift for this un-monumental birthday. Last year, for my twenty-first, it was Balkan 176, vodka so strong it knocked me over and out before I could drink enough to get myself in real trouble. My grandpa and my best friend, Cohen, pried it from my drunk fingers and proceeded to help me down the entire bottle over the course of a weekend. We were stupid-drunk as sailors on leave, and it was good times.

  Would have been better to have had my dad there for it, but beggars can’t be choosers.

  “Marigold, eh?” I feel a wave of pissed-offedness at the creepy happiness in this guy’s voice when he says my mom’s name.

  “Yeah, Marigold Beckett. My mother.” I make sure the words are clear as a fucking ringing, clanging bell for him.

  He clears his throat. “Right. Okay. I’m off of eighty, past the Surf Shack. You wanna come by and check out my portfolios, work up some sketches? I have a client scheduled in a few minutes, but once she’s done, the night’s open.”

  “I’ll stop by.” I click off just in time to pull into my grandfather’s driveway and honk twice. He swings the door of his tiny-ass house open with a bang.

  “What are you honking like that for? You got no manners, you know that? You do that when you pick up girls? ’Cause if any girl comes when you honk like that, she’s a damn floozy.” He has a limp on his left side, but other than that, my grandpa could wrestle a tiger with one arm tied behind his back.

  “I only date floozies. They’re the most fun!” I yell at him, and he cracks a wide, gap-toothed smile. “I’m just stopping by to tell you I’m going to get a new tattoo, so I won’t be around till late. You need a phone you can hear, you deaf son of a bitch. I tried you twice on the way here.”

  He leans into the driver-side window, slaps me on the back of the neck twice, and says, “More tattoos? Why? You aren’t ugly enough yet? You think you’re a big man now? I can still put you over my knee anytime.” He pats my shoulder. “Did you bring home some of your mom’s cake?”

  I pass the piece to him through the window. “Did you eat anything real today? I don’t need to come home to you in a diabetic coma.”

  “Stop clucking around me like a damn mother hen,” he gripes, flipping the box lid up and taking a swipe of the icing and eating it off his finger like a little kid. Or like me fifteen minutes ago. “Your mother is an angel. You got a package from that idiot son of mine?”

  I jerk my thumb toward the back. He raises an eyebrow at me. “I don’t want it,” I explain.

  “Stop pouting like a little girl and open the damn thing,” my grandpa snaps.

  But I hear the letdown behind his grumpy-ass words. My dad is a professional at letting people down, screwing up, not being where he’s needed most, not doing what he should be doing. When I was a kid, all I could focus on was what that meant to me and how much it jacked up my world. Now that I’m older, it kills me to see how it bites and eats at my grandpa and mom.

  “Fine.” I reach back with one hand and fish the box off the floor, rip the paper away, and dig through the little box, pulling out three cigars. “The label says ‘Gurkha,’” I read and my grandpa chuckles like a kid on Halloween. “Good?”

  “Too good for you.” Grandpa grabs them in his hand and turns to walk back to the house. “Get home at a decent hour, and we’ll have these with the lobsters I caught. Bring that numbskull friend of yours, too.”

  “You’ll make me lobster? Aw, you old sweetie!” I call to him. He waves his hand in disgust, but I catch the laugh that bobs his shoulders up and down.

  So Grandpa and I will drag Cohen over, eat some lobster dipped in butter, drink beer, smoke cigars on the porch, and talk about life and everything good while we try to ignore the hole that’s always a little blacker when my father’s not around for the epic days. Not the worst end to my birthday.

  But first I need to get a little ink.

  I find the place, a little neat-looking building, all modern and light with lots of windows and lots more art on the walls. There are the fairly standard pieces that every tourist or eighteen-year-old comes in and wants, no imagination, no real deep thought. Not that I should talk. I have an eagle on one bicep and a heart with “Mom” through it on the other. So fuck my attempts to keep my tattoos all original and meaningful.

  I’m heading to the heavy black portfolio books when a soft, husky voice behind the counter asks, “Did you make an appointment?”

  When I look up, I have a feeling I might do even better than some ink and coconut rum cake, lobster, and cigars this birthday.

  Chapter Two

  WHIT

  I slide the picture back into my desk drawer. The one of my brother sitting in Rocko’s chair, getting a new piece of ink. I had it printed from one of those websites that lets you turn your entire Instagram account into actual photos. That’s exactly what I did with his after the funeral. I had every photo he took while he was in Silver Strand printed.

  When they came in the mail, the box was smaller than I’d assumed it would be. Then again, I had the same thought when his ashes arrived. Strange how that is. A person’s entire life can fit into an eight-by-twelve inch box, whether it’s the memories they leave behind, or the ash they turn into.

  It doesn’t seem like nearly enough for the vibrant, brilliant, brave man Wakefield was.

  When the photos arrived, my plan started to form. I refused to let him be forgotten. So I took those photos and mapped out the places I’d go. I planned how I’d fall into his footsteps a
nd how good it would feel to walk the same streets he did in this city that he loved so much.

  I thought being here would provide some closure, some way to move on. That was probably my dumbest idea yet.

  Because Wakefield is everywhere.

  And nowhere at all.

  He’s nothing more than the name my parents whisper. The ink behind my ear.

  A memory crammed in a box or a drawer.

  I lean into the desk and suck in a deep breath, just as the bell above the door jingles. I sit up a little straighter and work to curve my lips into a small smile.

  “Hello?” I say, tapping my pen on the countertop to get the attention of the tall, dark-haired guy who just waltzed in. “Over here, appointment?”

  He likely doesn’t have one. No one ever does. They’re mostly tourists who think they need something a little more permanent than a jar of sea shells or a bag of salt water taffy to remember their trip to Silver Strand. So they come to see Rocko, who never turns anyone away. Which means that this guy, or any other douche that comes in without an appointment, will be here all night deciding which tattoo to get to complement their Affliction or Ed Hardy shirts and Rocko will do it. I’ll be stuck here, too, because, though Rocko may be skilled with the tattoo gun, reconciling the register at night is not his specialty. That’s what I’m here for.

  “Oh, hey, sorry ’bout that,” gorgeous surfer boy finally says. When he fixes his light eyes on me, a swirling inferno spreads under my skin despite the ocean breeze wafting through the door. “I don’t have an official appointment, but I called and talked to Rocko earlier. He said it was cool if I came by.”

  Sigh.

  “Of course he did,” I mumble, trying to look annoyed, but I can’t help returning the lopsided smile that hasn’t budged from his face. I ignore the way my stomach knots and attempt to be professional. Or as professional as the counter girl at a tat shop needs to be.

  “So, is it all right if I flip through the books?” He means the collection of heavy leather portfolios, but his eyes stay fixed on me, sexy, friendly, and sparked with that tiny kernel of hungry appreciation I now know as lust. One look from him and a thousand hormonal dominoes tip over and click to every part of my body that can get hot or wet or racing.